Question by ~xX*Rainbow Ninja*Xx~: my dad is a huge control freak(read description)?
and wont let me debate it with him. if i say something he tells me to shut my god damn f*cking mouth and crawl in a hole and die…but i dont spend all my time on the computer. my sister and i take turnes on the computer, and im outside for half of my whole day anyway. i hate going outside. its really boring to just sit there and do nothing!
i cant stand not being able to stand up and make my points, but in this house,im a woman, and my oppinion means s*it. im 14, i should be able to speak for myself, but its always ‘daddy says this daddy sayd that’ he treates me like im 7 years old. not once in my life did ever feel like a child, and just because im female does not make me inferior to him.
none of my friends live in the same town as me. they live in the next town over and i cant see them at school because schools out.
why is my dad such a control freak? we havent gotten along since his scizophrenia attack in ’06, and things got worse when he started refuzing to call me his daughter and started calling me ‘that girl’ because i told him i was a lesbian, and hiding my sexuality from the world was like a birdcage where i couldnt express myself, and it just utterly grossed me out when people said stuff like ‘i saw you walking out of school holding hands with whatshisname’ EW EWWW EWW! i would never
sorry for typing so much, im just ranting, but its true. i hold not one ounce of love for my dad. not any at all. it sounds coldhearted because you are supposed to love your family, but i found myself hoping he would die. no joke, i cant immagine how easy life would be without him. i truely do not love this man at all. i do not even like him, infact, i loathe him. im not crazy, i just had to put up with his emotional sexist torture for 14 years and im sick of it
PS: my mom is his 3rd wife. his first went to prison, 2nd went crazy and became a meth-dealer
and 3rd…my mom, she cant leave him, if she did she would be poor because she doesnt have a job and if she got a job me and my dad would kill eachother.
she doesnt love him at all. she wants to leave him, and i want her to, but i dont want us to be homeless. my mom is addicted to marijuana, and because of other drug reasons my dad drove her to, we almost got taken away when i was little.
my dad always blames his problems on us, and never admits to being wrong. my mom will be crying because of something he said or did and my dad will say ‘those damn girls need to stop p!ssing you off. then he yells at us for hours about making mom mad…but we dont, he does, and he thinks its us. my mom wont admit its him because he would probably kill her if she did
oh my, dont i have the most functional family in the world? my dream is to go to college, marry cassie, the girl of my dreams whom i have been madly in love with since i was a child, get a job as a filmmaker or hairstylist, and adopt a child. i try to live up to be a better person than my family, because i want a real family, and even if that family has two moms, it will be a loving functional one. my motivation for living, is cassie. she is my everything. i love her
(BTW: i came out when i was 11 or 12)
skylar: waht do you mean by that? leave her? no way in hell. id commit suicide
Answer by JustAMom
I’m sorry things are so horrible for you. It doesn’t sound as if your dad or your mom are able to parent you properly.
The one thing I really noticed in your post though was that you have some dreams: college, marriage, work,etc. My question to you is what are you doing to turn those dreams into reality? As far as college goes: are you talking to your school counselors about your options? are you working as hard as you can to qualify for scholarships and researching grants? You already know you cannot rely on your parents – so you must be strong and work these things out for yourself. Look for resources in your community – the YMCA, your school, local gay organizations, etc.
You can do all that you want with your life if you stay positive and believe in yourself – try your best to ignore the negatives in your home life. You will, soon enough, be legally an adult and can leave if you choose. Make sure you have a plan in place so that you can support yourself. Believe in yourself and your ability to make your wishes come true.
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